I barely even have a brain anymore...
Honestly...
I worry about myself a lot.
And no matter how much I ask for help or whatever, nothing ever changes.
Its an endless cycle, it seems..
So anyway. Today.
I went to the doctorrrr..
Nothing new or exciting, unfortunately.
We're never gonna figure out what the hell is wrong with me, I swear.
I have an MRI tomorrow on my brain.
Spooky, much.
Then we went to Carp..
That was okay.
My brother got a haircut, andddd.
We visited my aunt and uncle..
And had dinner with my grandma.
It was nice, even though we -had- to watch tv.
Tv.
Um, ew?
Then on the carride home..
Ahahahaha.
My brother got his head stuck in a desk today. ;D
I laughed so hard I made no noise.
Kick asssssss.
Fast forward. >>
I read my diary...
Its not an intelligent thing to do when your life has been super stressful and dramatic.
Its was crazyyyyy.
I relived 3 different relationships. o.o
Speaking of relationships.
i -still- have an ex boyfriend who won't talk to me.
I want soooo desperately to explain myself, you know?
Like, I still feel like a bitchy whore.
I -have- to tell him why it didn't work.
So I dont lose my miiiiiiiiiind.
God its cold in here...
Anyway.
Im still freaking out cause I have no one to love.
Like... Ugh.
Whenever I tell people that, theyre like "What the fuck. Everyone loves you. You could date anyone."
Umm, sooo not true.
I called Ellen today, and was like "So, how goes the boy scene?"
And shes like "Oh, Kyle held my hand today."
She doesn't realize how lucky she is..
Honestly.
Why is it that whenever I have a boyfriend I can't stand it, and when I dont, I can't stand that either?
It all seems very silly.
I got a lot to say to you, yeah I got a lot to say. I noticed your eyes are always glued to me. Keeping them here, and it makes no sense at all. They taped over your mouth, Scibbled out the truth with their lies, Your little spies. -- Paramore
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