uhhh..

Listening To : LION KING MUSIC. :D
Activity[s] : MSN, homework?, lol yeah.

Oh geez.
I dont even know what to think right now, rofl.

I had a good day!
I cleaned my room! O:
Well, started, anyway.
Got pretty far, too.
Shit its so nice.
Im happy. xD

Aaand theeeennnn.
My Papou Steve [grandpa, lol]'s birthday is tomorrow, so they had a bbq up at his house today.
And he specifically asked my mum if she could see if I could go.
So I totally went. ;D
Aaaand I brought Preston. Yay me! xDD
It was fun, too.
As per usual, mum and I were sort of the black sheep, cause we always are, especially when its my Aunt Karen, Courtney, and Christopher.. I dont like them much. :/
But its was awesome nonetheless.
We watched the Laker game, and hung out..
And my uncle Tom & my Papou seem to like the boy, so thats a plus.
Papou wants us to come up there and hang out. ^^ I love him, I really do. xD

Plus, Im seriously falling for the boy.
Its sort of insane.
I dont even know, lol.
Really.
o.o

But theeennn.
We got back to my house, and my dad and Kerri weren't here.
And we're not supposed to be here when they're not. Cause.. we're just not. lol.
[apparently its because kerri was a ho when she was my age, and doesn't think i would be any different..? ugh. i hate that.]
But the thing is. My dad NEVER told me he wouldn't be here. So I sort of had to walk into possibly getting in trouble.
Which pisses me off.
He texted me like "We're on our way, better bail!"
And I was like "... Excuse me?"
Anyhow. I just barely got Preston out the side door, before they walked in the other one. WAY too stressful.
And I felt horrible. He thinks Kerri hates him, and fuck, its no secret why.
Plus, its no fun to half-kick your boyfriend out the door, into pitch blackness, with an "Okay. Be quiet. See you later."

I got so pissed at my dad.
I was like "Dude. That was fucked up. Way too stressful. You didn't fucking tell me you weren't going to be here. How am I supposed to respect the rules when I dont know Im breaking them?"
He was like "Uh, well.. I swear I told you we were at Leah's."
And Im just like "Uh. No. Not so much."
Bleh.
And then I was like "Dude. Its no fucking wonder why he thinks Kerri hates him. The only input he ever indirectly gets from her is that he shouldnt be here. You'd think she hated you, too!"
Bleh again.

Lol I have homework to do.
But.
This last thing is important.

LEAH [not the above Leah, thats Dad and Kerri's friend. This is OUR friend Leah.] is a fucking bitch.
Okay so.
Apparently.
She likes Preston.
She told him so.
She told him. And dude. Girls very rarely tell a guy they like him if theyre not expecting something from it. Especially in Leah's case.
And she's clingy as fuck.
And now.
Shes talking shit about me.
And bringing Cliff into the picture.
When she doesn't even know how hard Im trying to have him not interfere with this.
Ugggghhhh.
Its sickening!
Because even though I know, she won't admit to it. She thinks she's going behind my back.

AND WHAT MAKES IT WORSE.
She asked out Doug yesterday.
And he said yes.
So then what the fuck does that mean.
She apparently "can't decide" between Preston and Douglas.
And I just want to kill her.

What the hell kind of friend is that?

uhh..

Listening To : The clinking of the dishes being put away..
Drinking : CHOCOLATE MILK.

Ahahahaha. Blogging in the morning is such a special experience.
I have to keep stopping to do stuff Im supposed to do. :p

Anyhow.
This has been bugging me.

I dont write this for the benefit of those whom I see every day [grammar is win!].
Its written for the people I adore that don't have that privelege.
Juuuust for the record. x.x
And.
What I write here isn't what I want to be judged on.
If I write it here, its for people who know me, and know how I work, to read and be like "Oh, okay.", because I never get a chance to talk to them.
God damn it, dont criticize what I tell my best friends!
I can tell them whatever the hell I want.
Im a girl.
Give me a freaking break.
/rant

ANYWAY.
I am such a girl.
My planner is full of cute little notes to myself, and random days are circled on the yearly overview. ;D

AND. 23 is STILL my favourite number, and will always be.
Its the most amazing number everrr. ♥

Uhhhhm.
Lets see.
I know I haven't talked to any of you guys in forever, Im sorry! D:
I miss you!
Ive been so freaking busy, and then been falling asleep at the most idiotic times... Like 9.30. ):

My mum and her new boyfriend [INORITE. she finally got one she likes!] are so much fun to hang around.
Its kind of silly. ;D
Theyre so adorable, omg.
And he's SO nice, and so good for both her and Perry.
Its pretty fan-freaking-tastic.

Uhh..
Today is Colin's 6th birthday. :D
Crazy, eh?
Hes getting OLD. D:

omg have to go.

and so another journey..

has come to an end.

Listening To : Where The Moss Slowly Grows -- Tiger Army [Jade Puget Remix]
Activity[s] : Supposed to be writing my history essay..

One thing I really hate.
When I have to act like people are my friends when they aren't.
Seriously.

"She's acting like you're alright. Like it was before the fight. But it's.. different."
"I don't feel like its the same at all. Its completely different, and not about to turn back. But its trying to be the same."
"There ya go, that's it."
"Yeah."

I don't know what to do.
She's going to figure it out, you know?
And then the drama shall continue.
It always does.
Its a friendship slated for disaster. :/

take only what you need from it. [aka: -squeee!-]

Listening To : Kids -- MGMT
Activity[s] : Homework, Facebooking [msn is fucked..]
Drinking : DIET COKE. ♥

Ooooh my.
What has happened..
Fuck if I know.
All I can say is.

Even though there are people blatantly against it.
Im fucking loving my relationship [w/ preston, if youre confused] right now. (:
My boyfriend is adorable.
Yeah.
I went there.
Cause I am having so much freaking FUN with this one.
Its so amazing.
And Im happy. Which is also amazing. Startling, even.
Startling that nothing is getting in the way of it [-cough-]. Im trying really hard, though. (:
Just like I said I would.
And its workinggg!
And its SO worth it.
^ stupid paragraph.

Cuteness squee story timeee.

Today.
We were sitting in history study hours.
[i had moved up one row, cause i was like "aaah youre too far away."]
And hes like ".. Do you have to walk home?"
And Im like "Yeah, probably."
Cause my family was out of town [until about an hour ago], and my friends had gone home earlier.
And hes like "... I could walk you."
So he walked me the nine blocks back up to my house. ♥
Twas so sweet, ahahaha. I told Emma, and she was like "AAAAAAAAAAAH."
Which then made me go "AAAAAAAAAAAAAH."
And it was just a stupid scene of.. stupidity.

I dont know.
I just feel like Im freakishly lucky, although there are people who'd beg to differ.
Hes just so sweet.

Now.
If you're Wishiah, you hate me.
):
She says she isnt, but she's so wildly against this its scary.
She came to the conclusion that she's just going to avoid us when were within ten feet of eachother.
Because she simply cannot bear it! -dramatic swoon-
Which is freaking stupid, and awkward, and horrible, and makes things bad. ):
"I dont want to be his friend."
And then Emma said it seems like shes trying to steal him from me...
[to which my response was "even if she was, she wouldnt be able to! ;D"]
God I dont even know.
Of course.
The one thing thats making me mega happy would tear me and one of my best friends apart.
Bleh.

But you know what.
What-the FUCK-ever, man.
I dont give a shit anymore.
Im fucking HAPPY, and if anyone is going to ruin it, its going to be ME.
And its not. :D