aaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

Listening To : Hold On To Me -- Armin Van Buuren [daddy told me to]
Activity : Totally flipping out with joy.

I.
Just.
Learned.
The.
Most.
Exciting.
Thing.
Ever.

I got a 2010 on my SAT!

My highest score was a 710 in Reading. Out of 800.
That's the 96th percentile, if I do say so myself.

I have not been this happy in a long, long time.

I HAVE A CHANCE AT LIFE!

By the way.
I got a 630 in math and a 670 in writing... The latter is amazing, considering I didn't finish, heh. ;D
But but but.
The math really should be better, hahaha.
College Board lets me do this thing where I can see how I "stack up" compared to different colleges' admission averages, and my pathetic 630 is below the average for Cornell.... But my reading score is above! :p

SO. As much as I don't want to, I think I have to take the stupid test again.
And I still have the subject tests on June 5, including math. Eck.

Anyway. My early morning excitement is over.
Off to school.
Woot.

holy crapplesauce.

Listening To : The Royal We -- Silversun Pickups [THIS IS MY FAVOURITE SONG. OH GOD I LOVE IT.]

Good god it has been for freaking EVER since I've even THOUGHT about posting on my blog. I am a horrible, evil person, I know.
edit. I AM TWO POSTS AWAY FROM 200! That's flippin' amazing.

I have 7 followers, now.
I don't know how that happened.
Who are you guys?
This is so exciting, but my mind is blown. :D

What else is new.
I guess there are two more weeks of Junior Year left, which is terrifying and beautiful and amazing, all at once. I've waited so long for senior year, and now that its approaching so fast, I almost want it to never come.
I'm so scared for the whole college process and everything... I get to find out how I did on the SAT in three days -- I'm shaking just thinking about it. :p

I'm living a lie.
That's all I'll say about that one, but I can tell you, I'm getting pretty damn sick of it.
And that lie -- mind you, this has nothing to do with me dying inside about said lie, because its only a lie due to some pretty unreceptive friends -- is keeping me from being able to sleep, cause the proponent of this lie has sort of poofed from my comforting thoughts at night.
Man. Vague.

I'm suddenly obsessed with knitting! Like, really obsessed! It's all I do, ahahaha. Like right now. I should be writing an English essay [BONUS FACT : I HATE the substitute English teacher for Beth, who had her baby. God. Laura. She makes me want to kill things and never take English ever AGAIN!], but instead I just totally derailed for several hours looking at knitting stuff. Patterns, yarns, ANYTHING. Its so much fun! Aaaah!

This is my new, incredibly exciting, knitting project of the ages.
Its soft and lovely and lacy and I absolutely adore it.
The yarn is Handmaiden Sea Silk, which is 70% silk and 30% seacell, which is apparently made from the cellulose of seaweed. Either way, its absolutely beautiful. :D
That edge is pleated, and it was a four-needle nightmare. So fun, so fun. ♥

You know me, with my million and four crafty projects... I also have the most massive embroidery project you've ever seen. It'll take me til' I'm a grandmother, you just watch.
And I did, in fact, finish [minus a bit of the granite counter and the edging] the Tuscan window cheese wine thing.... I'll have to find a picture of it at some point. (:

Anyway.
So much weird shit has happened lately. It's like, everything I thought I ever knew got flipped upside down and all around, and I don't know who to talk to, or when to talk to them, or what to do or say or think or feel.
Its an amalgamation of insanity and stress, and I'm falling apart at the seams, while gracefully holding myself together for the first time in years. Its a whirlwind of self-adoration and adventure and towering, dizzying precipices. And I love it.

We can laugh about it now
We hope everything works out