Summary of a Year : 2008

Listening To : Kill Hannah Pandora Station
Activity[s] : Cleaning mah room.

I made this, cause you know, I have nothing better to do.

Its been a long year.
12 months long -- just like all years.
That's a lot of weeks for stuff to happen, a lot of days for things to change.

Go down the list, and answer the "Did you..." questions however you wish. You may just put yes or no, or offer explanation.
For clarifications [ y / n ], choose either yes or no.
If your answer was no the initial question, say n/a [so that anyone who takes the survey after you can still answer them.]

If a section isn't applicable, say so, and just remove the spaces between the questions [once again, so that someone else can fill them out.]

Here's to another year.


How do you think your year was, overall?
Not too bad, considering.

Did You Or Didn't You

i. - - s c h o o l - -

Not applicable? It is. (:

Did you...

Switch schools?
Yeah. Anacappaaa, baby. ;D

Fail a class?
Lol many of them. Last school year.
Tis why Im in 10th grade again.

Cut class?
Last school year? Duh. I didn't go to school.
This school year? No way! Its too much work!

Get good grades?
Last school year? No. xD
This school year? Hells yes! 4.0, baby!

Play any sports?
No. Never.
Gym Fitness doesnt really count in my world.

Get any awards / honors?
Nah. I will at the end of the semester, but thats next year. xD

Take any Honors / AP / IB classes?
Uhhm.
Im officially in Honors Algebra 2.
But World History is basically an AP class.

ii. - - w o r k - -

Not applicable? Not really, no.

Did you...

Get a job?
Change jobs?
Get fired?
Quit?
Get a raise?
Get a promotion?
Get relocated?
Have a shitty boss?
Do something memorable for your employer?
Have more than one job?
Have more than two jobs?

iii. - - h o m e - -

Did you...

Move?
Yeah. To my dad's. (:

Re-do your room?
Mmhmm! I painted it!
Purple, silver, and black, baby.

Remodel?
Not.. Really...

Get any new pets?
CUDDLES!
But he's not here. ): He's at my mum's.

Lose any pets?
Nikita.
She poofilated. D:

Have anyone move out?
Nope.

Have anyone move in?
Nope.
Unless you count myself.

Blow a fuse?
AHAHA YES. So many times. SO. MANY. TIMES.

Light something on fire?
Not accidentaly, thank god.

Have a leak in your roof?
Yeah. I think so.

Decorate your house for:

[ yes! ] Christmas?
[ yes! ] Halloween?
[ no ] Fourth Of July?
[ no.. ] Something else? [ specify ]

iv. - - f r i e n d s and f a m i l y - -

Did you...

Have a family member die?
Not that I know of. o.o

Gain a new family member?
I dont think soo...

[ n/a ] Through marriage?
[ n/a ] Through birth?

Make any new friends?
Hells yes! So many. :D

Make a new best friend?
Yessss. :DDD

Met anyone you wonder how you could have ever lived without?
Hells yes. Dude.

Lost a friend?
Yeah. ): More than one.

[ yes ] Just lost contact?
[ no ] Purposely stopped talking to someone?
[ no ] Had someone move away?
[ no! ] Had someone die?

Done anything super-memorable with your friends?
Ahahaha sleepover extravaganza!

v. - - r e l a t i o n s h i p s - -

How many relationships did you have this year? 2.

Did you...

Kiss anyone?
Yep.

Have sex?
No way.

[ no ] Lose your virginity?
[ no! ] Get pregnant?

Fall in love?
Yesss.

Fall out of love?
Not really.

Think you were in love, but weren't?
Yeah. ._.

Ask someone out?
No, I never do.

Get rejected?
See above. ;D

Break up with someone?
Yes.

[ yeah ] Regret it?

Get broken up with?
Mmhm. ):

Like someone?
Duh. xD

Like more than one person at once?
Of course!

More than two?
Lol yes. xD

Do something for someone else's own good?
Probably.

[ yeah ] Regret it / think it really wasn't that good?

vi. - - m a t e r i a l - -

Did you..

Get any amazing gifts?
Yesss.
Tablet, anyone? ;D

Get any awful gifts?
Not really.

Give any awesome gifts?
... I dont know.

Regift something?
No! Wait yes.

Buy something really expensive?
Lol yeah.

Get something really valuable for really cheap?
My purse! :D

Sell something for a lot of money?
No. >.> I never have money, rofl.

Lose something?
On a daily basis!

Have a friend get something you really wanted?
... I dunno.

[ n/a ] Still jealous?

Have a garage sale?
No, I havent in agesss.

Go to a garage sale?
No, actually. o.o

Get any new furniture?
Yesss. I got a desk!

Get a new computer?
Nah, that was last Christmas.

Cell phone?
No. >.>

TV?
That was last Christmas too.

Stereo / MP3 Player?
No, but Im supposed to get a Zune!

Buy new holiday decorations?
Lol no! We have so many.

vii. - - m u s i c - -

Did you...

Go to any concerts?
NO. ): I wanted to, though.. .Kill Hannah. ;-;

[ n/a ] Were they good?

Buy any actual cd's [as in, you can play them in a cd player]?
Uhh. For my dad. xD

Spend more than $100 on music on iTunes / Amazon / etc?
... Hells no.

Spend any money on music?
I BOUGHT MY FIRST SONG LOL.

Develop any new tastes?
Yeaaaah.
I like instrumental movie music, now. REQUIEM FOR A DREAM, WHUT.

Find any new 'favourite' bands?
Kill Hannah, Birthday Massacre, Nightwish.. I dunno.

Lose any 'favourite' bands?
Shiny Toy Guns, Within Temptation, Coldplay...

Go through any significant phases?
Emo phase, techno phase, random-shit phase...

Gotten anyone hooked on something?
Yesss. :D
Shake Tramp - Mariana's Trench --> Puteri
Final Countdown - Europe --> Everyone?
Fer Sure - The Medic Droid --> Everyone?

Heard about something before anyone else?
MMHMMM.
Just Dance - Lady Gaga
[only one I can remember. xD]

[ YES ] Felt awesome about it?

viii. - - m i s c e l l a n e o u s - -

Did you...

Have an awesome birthday?
I think so..
Explain : It wasn't what I imagined for a sixteenth birthday.. Kind of meh. But I got some cool stuff..

Change perfume / cologne?
Lol yes. I always do.

Get a new hairstyle?
Ayeeee. :D
I got hair that I can straighten.

Have a dramatic change in body shape?
Not.. Really... Im more curvy [in a womanly sort of way.]

Run a mile in less than 10 minutes?
HELLS NO.

Like Twlight?
.. LOL. Youre so funny. >.>

Go to the hospital?
Yeah. Too many times.

Break a bone?
Never have.

Trip over a coffe table?
DUH.

The Months of The Year

JANUARY

[ ] awful
[x] bad
[ ] alright
[ ] decent
[ ] good
[ ] awesome
Notes : I was all stressed, cause the end of the first semester was coming up, and I didn't know what to do. Sad. ):

FEBRUARY

[ ] awful
[ ] bad
[ ] alright
[ ] decent
[ ] good
[x] awesome
Notes : I had the most amazing boyfriend ever. My Valentines Day weekend was made of win. <3

MARCH

[x] awful
[ ] bad
[ ] alright
[ ] decent
[ ] good
[ ] awesome
Notes : Broke up with awesome boy. ):

APRIL

[ ] awful
[x] bad
[ ] alright
[ ] decent
[ ] good
[ ] awesome
Notes : School was stressful as fuck. Had a good and then bad relationship with April. She pwns, though.

MAY

[x] awful
[ ] bad
[ ] alright
[ ] decent
[ ] good
[ ] awesome
Notes : Suckfest.

JUNE

[] awful
[x] bad
[ ] alright
[ ] decent
[ ] good
[ ] awesome
Notes : School again. School is so suckish. And my birthday was disappointing.

JULY

[ ] awful
[x] bad
[ ] alright
[ ] decent
[ ] good
[ ] awesome
Notes : I dunno. I had time to do random shit. I ditched Simfinity. Thank god.

AUGUST

[ ] awful
[ ] bad
[ ] alright
[ ] decent
[x] good
[ ] awesome
Notes : I got on the right meds! :D Happy times ensued. Still was stressed about what to do about school.

SEPTEMBER

[ ] awful
[ ] bad
[ ] alright
[ ] decent
[ ] good
[x] awesome
Notes : Anacapa, Grand Canyon, awesomness! :D

OCTOBER

[ ] awful
[ ] bad
[ ] alright
[ ] decent
[ ] good
[x] awesome
Notes : More Anacapa, more awesomeness! That school, seriously.

NOVEMBER

[ ] awful
[ ] bad
[ ] alright
[ ] decent
[ ] good
[x] awesome
Notes : Weee! Got a 4.0!

DECEMBER

[ ] awful
[ ] bad
[ ] alright
[ ] decent
[ ] good
[x] awesome
Notes : Was stressful, school-wise, but in a good way.

Three Words To Sum Up The Year

1 - Life-changing.
2 - Unpredictable.
3 - Alyssa.

hay, holidays!

Listening To : My "Puteri-ish Things." playlist.
--> Right now : I Dont Care -- Fall Out Boy
Activity[s] : Supposed to be writing Christmas cards. Not actually doing it.

Today is a very Alyssa day.
Its up and down. :p

I miss Puteri like you wouldn't believe.
She went to Malaysia for a month.
I told my dad two days before she left it would suck, and god damn it, it does.
She wont be back until January 8th. I'll be back in school before she's back!
God its so miserable.
I have so much shit to tell her, and I am never going to be able to, because there's WAY too much. And Im lazy.

My best frienddddd. I cannot have her GONE for a month!
Bitch! :D

She needs to be back.
Even though Im sure she's having a rockin' time, which is great. (:


Alyssa went Christmas shopping today!
Got some of the best gifts ever, too. xD

For Tom and Eileen [party central, those two!], I got disposable coasters, "featuring made up wine tasting quotes"!
There are six 'designs', and they are :

"Vigorous, well constructed, even a little bosomy!"
"Sprightly and gay with fruity character!"
"Plummy with strong thrusting overtones!"
"Wave after wave of buttery spice!"
"Elegant nose with a long and satisfying finish!"
"An explosion of blackberries and cranberry zing!"

Arent those the most amazing things ever?
Seriously.
I love them. I was laughing way too hard in the cheese shop. xD
[yes, the cheese shop. best place to buy random presents EVER.]


I also got cards. Lots of them.
From Papyrus!
Papyrus is the absolute shit, and I love it with a fiery passion.
Cause you know how much I love paper.
Handmade cards. That are mindblowingly awesome. Oh yeah.

I got cards for all my teachers [Gordon and Suzie have an exceptionally goregous one. It. Is. Stunning.], Dad and Kerri, Grandma Pat, and then other people. Like my mum, Grandma Judy, my friends.. Whoever strikes my fancy.
But that means I have to write them all.
And Im so lazy.


I heard this song in the car today.
Untouched, by The Veronicas.
The music is absolutely amazing. I love it so much.
It brought tears to my eyes.
ITS A FUCKING CELLO.

However. The awesome cello-ness is wasted on the shitty song.
Seriously.
The lyrics -- 'I feel so untouched' -- makes me think "What the fuck why dont you rape me!?"
Pathetic.
Absolutely pathetic.
It could be the most amazing gothic-ish, dark song ever. :D
Its still beautiful, though. Try and ignore the vocals, and its pwn. The first 10 seconds are nice. Rofl.


I was stuck thinking about Eric today.
I woke up this morning, and I smelled like him.
It was incredibly comforting and nice, but still. Feh.

I still dont know what to do about that.
Lol. Not like its some easy thing, I know.
Whateverrr. Hes so cute. Squee. ♥


Im going to send Cliff the greatest christmas card ever.
Hes going to be like ".. You're an idiot. But you rock & I love you!" [lol keep dreaming, Alyssa.]
But really. Ive been really.. sentimental. For like, months. xD
I appreciate everyone and everything.

-dances-
Tah. ♥

feh.

Second post in less than half an hour.
edit : holy crap its been over an hour. Im on drugs.

I hate it when people make plans, and get me all excited.
So Im like "Oooh, Im so happy, Im doing ____ tomorrow!"
And my other friends are like "Awesome!"

And then the person Ive made plans with is like "Oh nevermind."
Or the plans fall through.
Or something.
The end result being I dont go.

Because then I feel stupid.
When people are like "HOW WAS ____?!"
And I have to say "Oh, I didnt go, lol. Didn't work out."

It happens way too much.
Makes me feel pathetic and antisocial.

Awh.

let me hear you screaming just for me.

Listening To : Where The Moss Slowly Grows [Jade Puget Remix] -- Tiger Army
Activity[s] : Feeling bad, texting, making plans, msning. Yeah.

I have a nasty habit of doing things that just aren't good for my mental well being.
Case and point : this evening.

I went to my dad's company party, as I usually do, and what do you know.
Eric was there.
Which makes sense, considering both his parents work with my dad.
But still. I was like "OMG."

I havent seen him since the moving-out party across the street in like, August or whatever, so I was like "Aaah!"
I actually got mad at him just yesterday for not talking to me anymore, cause I missed him.
Go figure.

So anyway.
It was actually really frustrating.
You know me, Im not patient. My bitching about my trying to be patient in other matters should give that away.
So in my ideal world, I would have just kissed him, and then wrapped my arms around his waist and just not let go.
But nooo.
I had to play this silly game.

Because for whatever reason, he decided for a while to avoid me, and only me.
And I hate to be the desperate-looking one that follows people around, so I just.. didnt.
But then that didn't get me anywhere. At all.
Why do i always have to be the one to follow people? Cant anyone EVER follow ME instead?!

Anyway.
Finally solved that problem.
And then it was fun. ish.

He actually sat on me at one point, that was chill. xD
Seriously, whatever works, man.
He smelled really, really nice, too, so that was a plus.
Im so used to being sat on -- he was so light. But he wouldn't believe that he wasnt killing me. Of course. Guys. Pfft.

I could launch into detailed descriptions of all the little things that happened that i thought were sweet, but I wont, for your sake.
He was really sweet, though.

But the entire time I was freaking out.
Because he does have a girlfriend. Her name is Jessica, and that is all I know. I know, what kind of stalker am I?
Ive just gotten lazy, and I dont feel like looking her up, because it'll depress me.
And so yeah.
The entire time we're sitting there, it was obvious to anyone that we aren't just friends. [but we're not dating!]
And the guy whos house the thing was at, his daughter was there [obviously?].
And I guess Jessica is the background to Eric's phone, so at one point she's like "Your girlfriend?" and hes like "Yeah."
And then I kept getting this distinct feeling she thought.. Well Idont know what she thought.
But it couldnt have been good.

I mean seriously.
If you were sitting there, you know this guy has a girlfriend, and hes holding onto this completely different girl like theyre dating, wouldnt you be like "God hes an asshole, and she's a slut."?
Way to make an impression, Alyssa.

So thats my drama for today.
It was a nice way to end a day [no sarcasm!].
I miss that kid like hell.
But seriously. I hate the negative connotation to it.
And he still owes me a kiss. :p

you're my angel.

Angel Mine

Cowboy Junkies
[http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L73VjMAUews]

He searched for those wings that he knew
that this angel should have at her back
And although he can't find them
he really don't mind
because he knows they'll grow back
And he reached for that halo that he knows
that she had when she first caught his eye
Although his hand came back empty
he's really not worried
'cause he knows it still shines

I can't promise that I'll grow those wings
or keep this tarnished halo shined
but I'll never betray your trust
angel mine

I search all the time on the ground
for our shadows cast side by side
Just to remind me that I haven't gone crazy
that you exist and are mine
And I know that your skin is as warm and as real
as that smile in your eyes
But I have to keep touching and smelling
and tasting for fear it's all lies

I can't promise that I'll grow those wings
or keep this tarnished halo shined
but I'll never betray your trust
angel mine

Last night I awoke from the deepest of sleeps
with your voice in my head
And I could tell by your breathing
that you were still sleeping
I repeated those words that you had said

I can't promise that I'll grow those wings
or keep this tarnished halo shined
but I'll never betray your trust
angel mine

♥

Before you say "WTF".
This was my dad and Kerri's wedding song.
I woke up with it stuck in my head this morning.
And it makes me unbelievably happy.

huh.

Listening To : A Modern Myth -- 30 Seconds To Mars

I feel really guilty right now.

As you know, my computer is broken.
So dad finally called Dell, and they sent us a new keyboard [lol] and a Windows XP disc, so that we could reinstall the operating system.
However.
The sticker on the bottom of the computer with the Windows product key was put in the WORST PLACE POSSIBLE, because the fucking numbers wore off.
So I tried to see it, and figure out the numbers, but apparently Im fucking retarded and failed.

So now he has to buy a new product key for like, 200 bucks.
Yay Alyssa.

Hes like "This computer is a disaster for me."
Which makes me feel fantastic.

What a way to end a shitty day, eh?

i see nothing in your eyes.

Listening To : Breath -- Breaking Benjamin
Eating : The most orgasmic Trader Joes meal ever -- a french 'tart' [pizza-esque] with ham and onions. Its. A. Maz. Ing.
Drinking : Alyssa-style gourmet hot chocolate.

. you take the breath right out of me.
. you left a hole where my heart should be.

I had a ridiculous day today.
I didn't sleep last night, obviously, so I had that added loveliness.
But I also didn't eat.
Nothing since dinner last night. Only coffee. About 5 cups of it.

You saw, briefly, what was going through my head post-poetry, but I wasnt like that all night, I promise.
I spent a long time watching movie preview spoofs and college humor videos. It was way too much fun. xD
I felt like I was rotting my brain, but thats cool.
It was a lot more amusing than working on my Literature essay like I was 'supposed' to be doing.

Anyway.
The change was sparked by my random decision to both listen to 'emo' music, and check up on dA.
Bailey had posted a journal, featuring 13 artists she really liked.
And the first two were poets.
I randomly picked one, and boy did I choose right.

I ended up looking at Amertie's gallery for a while, reading her poems, and sinking into this awesome trance state.
I get like that, you know.
I actually rather like it. I think super logically when Im like that.
She's truly amazing, though. Really.
http://amertie.deviantart.com/ <-- Click! So yeah. I showed up at school singing Breaking Benjamin, looking fucking goregous, and having snapped back into a good, non-trancelike mood.
Where I proceeded to be silly. xD

But even though I was in my typical, bubbly, i-didnt-sleep-last-night mood, I was really thoughtful all day.
I kept finding excuses to look at people [cough] and just like. Think.
I do that from time to time.
Its really pretty magical.

. i see nothing in your eyes.
. and the more i see, the less i like.

Oh speaking of which.
Its impossible to know whether or not the effort I put into myself was noticed.
The kid makes no sense, ever.
I was talking to Leah, and Im like "Dude I never have any idea what the hell he's even doing."
And shes like "I KNOW. Its kind of odd."
So whatever. xD
I retained my beauty, though. ;D When I got home, my face still looked halfway decent.

BUT GYM.
Gym sucked.
See, last time, Jason informed me that I had a B.
So today I was freaked out, and put a lot of effort into it.
But the downside was I still hadnt had anything to eat but coffee, really.
Funnnn.
I was dizzy half the time, and by the end, I was physically shaking.
Like, vibrating.

Leah, Preston and I had a lovely walk back, though. ;D
Its pretty amusing. He's pretty amusing, I mean.

"So then why are you sixteen, and in tenth grade?"
"Cause its my second year of tenth grade."
"Wh.. What? Really? How did that happen?"
"Its a long story."
"I have time. Well not really. But hit me."

Silly, I tell you.

I stayed after school for a bit to harass Katy in History office hours, that was fun.
And then I got home and died.
I went up and went to bed and slept for two hours. xD
And then came down to eat..
And here I am!

. is it over yet?
. i cannot win.

oh, forget me not.

Ive decided Im not some fantastic, poetic person.
I dont have a brilliant personality, the kind songs and poems showcase.
I dont say anything witty, like "The present's just a pleasant interruption to the past", because Im afraid of the future.
I approach life in my own way, but Im nothing brilliantly unique.
And at the same time, I am terribly individual, and different.
And Im okay with that.

Its the small things I love.
On Mother's Day, I went down to visit my aunt and uncle. Childless. They're still young.
He had bought her a box of truffles for Mother's Day.
I jokingly asked why, for they don't have any children.
And he replied "She's a mother to our cats," with a smile.
Small things are the best.
The things you don't even notice right away, and its not until you're bored, writing a letter to an acquaintance at best, and your mind is wondering, that you realize that there was someone behind that lovely coincidence, and they did it out of love.
The little, tiny, minuscule things that seem to stick with you the longest.

I hate the fruitless way in which I do things.
I just spent a good 45 minutes on my appearance.
Trying to look perfect for someone who wouldn't notice if I came to school missing an arm.
As I do my eyeshadow, I try to think that I dont give him enough credit, but then my mind shouts back, "Of course you do!", and Im left at a standstill.

We often have the conversation about how a girl will want someone similar to her father or brother in the end.
The personality of that family member is one we admire, so its only natural.
My dad automatically notices when my stepmum or I do anything special.
When he comes down to take me to school, he will say "You look nice today, Sauce."
To which I will offer my smile, and, after this, thank him for noticing. I dont thank him enough in general.
So is it so awful for me to want someone to notice the things I do?

Im off to fufill all my responsibilities as a teenager;
mainly school, but I have to put away some dishes as well.

But I leave in a weird state of mind, as should be apparent.
Im not really sure what it is I want right now.
And Im hoping I'll figure it out.

8 People I Couldn't Live Without

Ive done this before, in January. [link]
I really like doing it, too.
So in the spirit of Thanksgiving, Im gonna do thisss shit. (:

My family [mum, dad, stepmum, brothers, sister, grandparents, cousins, etc.] don't count. For real this time.
These are not in order.
The people in my life that mean everything to me.
The people I would drop everything for.
The people I would donate a kidney to without second thought.
The people I would die for.

PEOPLE I COULDN'T LIVE WITHOUT

1. Puteri
On the list once again.
This girl. She's amazing, nice, amusing as hell, loves music as much as I do.
She remembers all the little things I tell her, whether or not theyre inherently important.
She's always willing to talk to me, and help me through things.
She's incredibly supportive of me, and I try to be the same for her.
I don't know where I'd be without this girl -- she's supported me throughout everything in the past year.
She may be in New Zealand, but like fuck I care. She's the best best friend I could ask for.

2. April
I love her with all my heart. I really do. So she's on my list again.
She's saved my life twice, and although I've done the same for her, I still owe her everything.
Ive dated her, and I will forever love her, even if it didn't work out.
I can always count on her to bring a smile to my face, but also to support me when I need help.
She's not perfect, and has trials and tribulations of her own, but we are good at helping eachother out at the same time.
I would definitely die if she did, because I cannot imagine living in this world without her.
I know she's gonna do some amazing things with her life.

3. Cliff
It was a lie, not to have him on the last 'edition'.
Definitely one of my best friends. We talk every day of our lives, about everything and anything.
I love him to death, and he returns the favor. We're mostly okay with it.
We have our problems, and have more than enough disagreements and arguments, but whatever.
Even when we're screaming at eachother, he's still one of my best friends, and I wouldn't trade him for the world
Over the last year, he has integrated himself into my life in such a way that I would be completely lost if he wasnt there.
And Im happy with that.

4. Kate
Proof that randomly complimenting people gets you places.
Kate is one of the most amazing people ever to live. Seriously.
I randomly started talking to her after she said how awesome she thought I was, and now she's one of my best friends.
She has an awesome taste in music, an awesome personality, and is just flat out amazing.
She's always willing to talk with me and help me through anything, whether or not I think I want to talk about it.
She's supported me in more ways than I think even she knows.
She brings a smile to my face every time I talk to her, and conducts herself in an amazing way.
She's down to earth and lovely and I love her to death.

5. Johny
Still on my list. (:
We have gotten past our random arguments on the basis of our morals, which is amazing, because I hated it.
He's awesome, and knows what he believes in and sticks by it, and just that alone is inspiring.
He's caring and thoughtful and watches out for and worries about me -- Im more thankful for that than I let on.
Hes always so excited to talk to me, and brings a smile to my face.
Im still amazed he puts up with all my teenage-girl drama, but whatever.
Ive been talking to him the longest out of any of these people, and Im happy about it. (:

6. Emma
The first of the people on this list from Anacapa.
Emma. I dont even know what I can say.
She's always willing to help me through anything, and is probably one of the most thoughtful people on the planet.
She is genuine, and is always looking out for everyone.
At the same time, she's one of the craziest people Ive met [and thats saying something], and we fit together perfectly.
She is great, and we have fun acting like lesbians and talking about the incredibly random people we like. Its magical.
Im really, unbelievably happy I met her, and wouldn't know what to do if she poofilated.
I definitely love this girl, she's fantabulous. (:

7. Wishiah
Second Anacapa person. O: I love that the people I've met there mean so much to me.
Wishiah is great. Seriously.
She's a happy, easy-going person. She looks at things as rationally as she can, and conducts herself in an amazing way.
She's fantastic to talk to, either jokingly or about real, serious things.
She's crazy creative, and we're writing the best story ever. Its sexy.
I find it impossible to be mad at her, and I think thats awesome -- I hate being mad.
She always brings a smile to my face, and I would happily stay up all night talking to her about god knows what.

8. Eric
My pet asian. He's pretty freaking great, too.
I love him to death [it seems like I love everyone..], and I really wish he lived just a little bit closer. Oh welll. ):
I would date him in an instant, I really would.
He's great to talk to -- the sweetest guy ever. He definitely makes me smile.
I hardly ever see him, but whatever. He's still fantabulous.
He is really understanding about everything -- I can tell him anything, and he doesn't hate me.
Awesome.

I love my friends.
I could never live without them.
Ever.

I will not cry.