.. Im Your Huckleberry.

Listening To : Bitter For Sweet - Blaqk Audio
Drinking : Hot buttered rum
Activity(s) : Sitting being bored, reading old roleplays

So Im slightly tipsy.
And have a headache.
Meh.

Ah well.
Anyway.

My room is still clean. o.O
Since I partway cleaned it, it hasnt gotten messy again.

And the hole in my knee is.. Better-ish.
Still creepy.
And still a hole.

And typing is harddddd.

We watched Tombstone tonight...
I love Doc.
Hes amazinggg. <3
Just saying. :]

I spent hours and hours in photoshop today.
But.
It makes me mad how people think Im lame for liking sims...
Bitches.
It gives me something to do. x.x
And yeah. I was really, really proud of the thing I worked on for everrr.
Im not anymore, but I WAS.

Valentine's

Listening To : I Will Find You - Enya
Drinking : Water
Activity(s) : Playing with Simfinity, trying to get a magazine page done in photoshop, bugging people on msn

Okaaaaay.
Lets do this thingy.

Valentines Day.
Even when Im not single.
I hate it.
So much. xD

Although this yeaaarrrrr...
Well let me start from the beginning.

I got hardly any sleep, cause I was nervous as fuck. (You would have been too, dont judge me.)
So on the 14th I was cleaning and sleeping and wasting time, of courseee.
And my little brother and I decided to run down the driveway.
And I fell.
And completely destroyed my knee(s), feet, hands, and hips. Yay.
So I was in pain. Still am.
I nearly passed out, actually. It was trippy.

So anyway.
The cute boy got here -right- after I finished washing blood off myself. xD
And he brought me irises.
And chocolate.
Which I still need to eat... xD

And...
Hes nice and warm to cuddle up to. <3>

Oooh, shopping!

Listening To : Famous Last Words - MCR
Eating : Brown sugar and butter.. In a cup.. YEAH.
Drinking : Water.
Present Activity(s) : Talking on SF, playing on msn, hoping my computer doesnt die again. xD

Okay. So. You can tell a lot about people by reading their shopping list, or looking in their cart.
For example.
Here's our shopping list.
(Kudos if you can tell which parts are inspired by me.)

- Bottled water
- Brown sugar
- Granulated sugar
- Powdered sugar
- Teriyaki sauce
- Hot Cheetos
- Acai juice
- Butter
- Peanut butter
- Garlic
- Black pepper
- English muffins
- Mayonnaise
- Buttermilk
- Cinnamon Toast Crunch

And I think thats all we have right now, haha.
But yeah.
<3
Food.
Does that make you want to stay with us? xD

(Answers : My influences are; water, cheetos, sugar, acai juice, and english muffins. I absolutely HATE buttermilk, btw.)

Anyway.
I hate immature people. x.x

Help help help, oh please do.

I didnt sleep last night.
I spent most of the time watching Grey's Anatomy.

And this morning on the way home I realized something...

I fucking SUCK at being a girlfriend.
I can love someone with all my heart (and more), and think theyre perfect...
But as soon as I think too much...
I think about what everyone else will say.
And it drives me mad.
And I cant breathe.
I cant think.
I cant move...

I want to just throw up and pass out.
And be single forever.
But I love to be loved...

Dear god, someone, please..
Help me sort out my mind.
I need help.
I dont know what to do.

Well, shoooot.

Listening To : Milkshake - Goodnight Nurse
Eating : Hot Cheetos.
Drinking : Acai juice.
Current Activity(s) : Talking on msn, Facebooking, reading HP fanfics.

(Nifty little intro, dontchya think? ^-^)

I have made an official decision.
I am going to cease trying to be affectionate, in hopes a nuclear war will not ensue.
-sigh-
Everyone always misunderstands me, bastards...
I mean.. Honestly.
If I try and prove to people I care about them, everyones like "Ooh, Im better than you!" "Ooh, why am I not on the listtt!?" "Who the hell is that? Why are they important!?"
-sigh-
It just makes life waaay to complicated, you know?
Not that I have anything against misunderstandings..
I just feel really guilty.
Its like.. What I do.

And now my juice is gone.
For the record, acai juice is the ONLY kind of juice I actually like.
Tis delicious.
And sooo good for me, too. ^-^;

Anywho. Since I stayed up till 7 in the morning (though Im not complaining, it was fun..), I didnt wake up till like.. 5.
I sleep a lot. xD
So now Im praying I wont be up all night..
That'd suck.
xD

I wanna write a story though..
Or roleplay..
Or SOMETHING.
x.x

Ill have a heated driveway, please.

So yeah.
Its like, nearly 7am, and Im sitting here looking at expensive houses and nifty interior design...
Like this.Yeaaah.
I think it would suck to fall off those stairs into the water, though.
Can you imagine, in the dark, at night? Gah.

Hahaha. Blake and I are -so- bored.

And its really cold.. Im starting to wonder if my window is secretly open. xD
So as I sit here and freaking shiver. x.x
Dude. I so wish i was tired.
I really need to sleep, you know...
Gah.
Darn it.

Alyssa loses.

And Im -still- failing with the whole school thing.
Total suckage.

9 People I Couldn't Live Without

These aren't in order, and these aren't all of the people I need in my life, but they are some of the most important to me. (And this doesnt include my mom, dad, siblings, or grandparents...)
The people I would die for in an instant.
The people I would travel to the ends of the Earth for.
The people I would give a kidney to.

PEOPLE I COULDN'T LIVE WITHOUT

1. Puteri
Miss Puteri is always there for me, always willing to cheer me up, and always willing to tell me whatever is bugging her.
I could trust her with my life, and adore the crap out of her.
I love the conversations we have, and the silly moments we've shared, as well as the deeper things we've talked about.
Even though she's in NZ, she's one of my best friends, and damn if Ill keep it that way.

2. April
April. Shes saved my life once (twice, actually), and I love her to an amazing extent.
Even though she gets on my nerves and is a crazy woman, I would kill myself in a heartbeat if she died.
Whenever I talk to her, Im smiling. Unless of course, Im not. xP
I love her dearly, and Ill most definetely meet up with her someday, just so we can be silly together.

3. Ellen
She might be crazy and hard to get along with, somewhat shallow, and take life for granted, but at the same time...
Miss Ellen is like a freaking ray of sunshine. She always makes me smile.
We've had some amazing times together, and sure as hell we'll have more of them. (Mud pies, anyone?)
We have a habit of drifting apart, but always come back together. <3

4. Johny
One of those people you never expect to be such good friends with when you first meet them.
Now I feel like if he were to vanish, Id be at a loss.
Even though Im sure I drive him absolutely nuts with my silly teenage-girl-isms, he still puts up with me.
Thats saying something. And I love him for it. <3

5. Blake
Well dont look so surprised. I haven't known him for long, but the boyfriend is quickly starting to mean the world to me.
Hes sweet, understanding, caring, always there for me (even when Im a bitch...)...
Pretty much the perfect thing for me when my life sucks.
He doesnt view me as an object, but instead as perfection. And he does it honestly. And I love him.

6. Jessica
Soo yeah, there was that time when she refused to talk to me cause I was being stupid...
But Jessica is always there for me, willing to help, and amazingly sweet.
She amazes me all the time, working her ass off on things, and having a ridiculous amount of patience.
And she makes awesome cookies.

7. Max
Maxxxx. How could I not like someone who cared so much about me? And was so damn funny?
But really. Hes always willing to try and cheer me up, no matter what is wrong.
He'll gladly listen to my drama, and offer silly responses. And hes always encouraging me to do what I want.
Plus, hes amazing at doing voiceovers for his friends balloons.

8. Derek
Okay so i lied. Derek. The best cousin ever. We are the two who dont fit in, since were not blood related.
And we have a damn good time doing it.
Derek is sweet (although hyper as fuck), and is always there for me, no matter what.
He hates to make me worry, and has a way of scaring cats. And hes great. Makes me thankful for my stepmom.

9. Tyler
Another one of those "Wow, I cant believe we ended up being friends" people.
Tyler cares about and listens to every word that comes from my lips, always willing to understand and help me.
Hes sweet, cares about me to an amazing degree, and wants nothing more than for me to be happy.
i can call him whenever I damn well want, and he will happily talk to me.

I love my friends, and if anything happened to them, Id probably die in an instant.

Now. For everyone on that list :

Omigoodness.

Okay. So heres the dealiooo.
I have to get my room, my house, and my.. Me.. Perfect in two weeks.
Im making to-do lists.
And its gonna be hellllllllllllll.

Heres the one for my room :

ROOM

Step One :
Throw trash away
Put ALL clothes into ONE pile
Get everything out from under bed

Step Two :
Go through EVERYTHING, and get rid of unwanted/unused shiiit
Sort remaining stuff by category
Try not to die
Blast music very loudly

Step Three :
Plan organization
Rearrange furniture
Vacuum
No dying yet!!

Step Four :
Put shit away
Actually -do- the organization
Dance around

Step Five :
Vacuum, dust, polish, etc.
Decorate
Arrange things on surfaces
Redo bulletin board, etc.

Do you see what i mean?
And.. It really WILL take me forever.
Cause I have to do the bathroom, too.
And the house in general.
And make myself perfect at the same time...

Oi.

-butterflies-

Alright. Time for girly postinggg.
If you dont care, dont read.
Its really THAT simple. :D

So anyway.
The Greenie has a boyfriend. ;D
A really sweet one.
A 19 year old one, as well. o:

... Yeah. Okay. So. Meh. Im underage to him, and.. Whatever. x.x
Hes still amazing, he still loves me, and Im damn happy.

For once.

Aaaaannndddddd, since I know he'll never see this (Heh), ramble time. :]
His name is Blake, he lives in the Bay Area, and goes to the same college my mum went to. o.O
He has 2 kitties that I want to steal.
And he is coming down to visit me for Valentines Day, which is only 2. Weeks. Away. -squee-
So Im pretty much delighted.

Although its complicated.
Since Im 3 years younger, -and- underage.
I ended up spazzing out this morning and had to walk like, 2 miles at 6.30 am and freeze to death...
And then I slept.
-sigh-
Im so weird.

Yeah.
Yay me.

---

Now, lets try some -not- girly stuff.

School is pretty much confusing.
I still dont know what Im going to do this semester.
And honestly..
I dont -want- to go back and try AGAIN next year. Again.
Its too hard.
I mean, whenever I try to go to school, it NEVER works. x.x
I think I just need to be homeschooled, you know?
I dunno, though.
Like...
Im going to transfer back to Carp, so I can do the homeschooling there...
Cause people are asses?
I dunno. x.x

My life is so complicated.

Im cold, lulz.

So Im listening to 1973.

I haven't in a while. -nod-

Um.

I dont know what to say, rofl.

My life pretty much SUCKS ass.

'Cept for April. <3

Anywho.

yeh.

Everyone's like "Oh, by the way..."

And Im like "AH NO NOT MOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE."

:]

I just read my WHOLE blog.

its pretty crazy.

Like woah.

Im a fucking POET sometimes.

Oh right.

So today was my brother's birthday.

And Ihave to look at the keyboard, otherwise I fail miserably at typing.

So.

Lately.

Cliff has been being an ass. >.>

WHat an.. Ass.

So.. Obtuse. XD

But really.

He likes to tell me I have pathetic taste in everything.

Gah.

D:

He also likes to wake me up in the mornings. >.>

More gah.

Im getting into one of those "Pretty much everyone hates me" modes.

But I cant get away with it, cause so many people.. Dont hate me.

Darnit. xD

All my plans, FOILED.

(Foil is pretty gangstaaaaaaaaaa. xD)

Anyway.

I miss people like Spencer and Zachary and Peter and Kara... :/

I want my -old- friends back. The one's I never talk to anymore.

Good times...

:q The days of the tonguelicker. :D