POOFINH [pt. 2]

Well, alrighty.
I just love it when youve been going on a truth for several weeks, then all of the sudden its like "BAM. Sorry, you lose."
I mean, I suppose Im happy I kinda know whats going on..
Lol.
Keeps me from losing my mind..
And I was right.
Hurrah, for sticking up for people when you know how they really are.

Too random not to make sense... :]

Ah well.. So apparently, Im not allowed.
Which is ridiculously unfair...
Oh well.
Theres nothing to do about it. ;-;
Even though everyone here is a man-ho.
Shucks.

Anyway.
So today...
I dont know.. I cant even remember what happened today.
I was in total zombie mode..
Apparently I got a 105 on my Latin test...
I dont think I failed Math...
And I dont know where the brake is in a car. How sad. :/

I got my school pictures. :p
They were in the Greek, and I pretty much walked by Amanda and Ellen and Kristen, totally ignoring them.
I felt so bad...
I wanted to cry.
And then in History.. I dont know.. Alex was being.. Alex-ish.
Whateverrrrrr.

Im confused..
My life is super odd.
I wish it was easy.
Damn.

POOFINH

Fidelity
Regina Spektor

I never loved nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting my heart truly
I got lost in the sounds

I hear in my mind
All of these voices
I hear in my mind all of these words
I hear in my mind all of this music
And it breaks my heart

And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
when it breaks my heart

Suppose I never, ever met you
Suppose we never fell in love
Suppose I never, ever let you kiss me so sweet and so soft
Suppose I never, ever saw you
Suppose you never, ever called
Suppose I kept on singing love songs just to break my own fall

Just to break my fall
Just to break my fall
Just to break my fall
Break my fall
Break my fall

All my friends say that of course it's gonna get better
Gonna get better
Better better better better better better better


~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Pretty song...
Ill add more, as soon as I address a letter and write Aaron a note. :/

Snow Greenie ;; Super Pointless, lol

Okay.
This is a lovely story written for me by my wonderful friend.
Its straight from IRC, too.
With commentary.

It made me smile..

Note :
'Me' is Panda, the author...
All the others are my IRC amigos.

Snow Greenie

as taken from #social

[ImOnlyAPanda] I trip on the tide of song birds rushing towards greenie. Greenie is understnadably alarmed by all the birdies. So she chops them up and cooks them in a big pie.
*** ImOnlyAPanda is now known as Me
[Greenie] I chopped up the birdies!
*** Greenie is now known as BirdieChopper
[Jessica] that is not the way to get your happily ever after
[Me] shall i take your story in less bird killing directions?
[Jessica] you guys need to brush up on your fairytales lol
[Me] this is a parody jess
[Me] and not avery good one
[Jessica] you have to put on a pretty dress and lots of makeup...and put yourself in harms way
[Jessica] and then...wait for some hot guy to show up and save you
[Me] greenie continues on her merry way, but the queen of the land, whitey, was all like, "no! evil bird killer! get your ass out of here!" so reenie left the castle and went looking for more birds to chop. finally she found a filthy cottage built for little people
[BirdieChopper] Okay. So Im in the filthy midget cottage.
[Jessica] hmm
[Jessica] well i dont think you'd clean it
[BirdieChopper] Probably not, lol.
[Me] there was a clearly posted sign that said: Do Not Enter, Home of the Seven Evil Cannibal dwarves." but greenie waltzed on in and started singing "someday my prince will come" this annoyed the local fauna so much that they filed a complaint with the board of directors of the forest
[Jessica] she was so busy singing and twirling she didnt see the sign?
[BirdieChopper] Makes sense, lol
[Me] so finally the paperwork was done and the dwarves returned to see greenie sitting loudly singing in their cottage. one dwarf said, "whya re you siting singing in this cottage?" and greenie said, "jes said if you sit around singing in a nice dress prince charming will come"
[Me] and the dwarves looked at each other and mouthed, "dipshit" but the ifrst dwarf said, "thats not a nice dress"
[Jessica] :o
[BirdieChopper] Omg!
[BirdieChopper] Am I in a stripper outfit again..?
[Me] and greenie looked at them and said, "shut up"
[Jessica] what?
[Jessica] when were you in a stripper outfit
[Targ] "again"?
[BirdieChopper] Uhmm...
[BirdieChopper] Nevrmind.
[BirdieChopper] Anyway.
[Me] then a voice came from above and said, "this is your narrarator, theres still quite a lot to get through, so sit down and shut up while i type"
[Me] meanwhile whitey was all like, "whoo! im the awesomest one here now that greenie's outta here." and panda said,"uhm youre not as awesome as cake or jess or me" panda was then kicked
[Me] so white used her magic mirror, which was actaully a painting, and said so greenie's out of the picture right? even though the movie is called "snow greenie" and were only halfway through" the painting came to life and said, 'nope shes in the forest with the seven dwarves'
[Me] and whitey said "damnit!"
[Me] so greenie was in the cottage and the cannibal dwarves were like, "youre an idiot, but you cna kinda-sorta-maybe sing and a plot device is nescessary. so if you clean up this dump you can stay"
[Me] and greenie gave him a sideways look and left
[Me] but the lovely narrarator of the story said, Mupupupup! and picked greenie up and put her back in the story, over her eloquently cursed protests
[BirdieChopper] Okay, so Im back in the story.. :/
[BirdieChopper] Do I have to clean?
[Me] so greenie cleaned up the seven dwarves abode, mainly by going into buy mode, deleting everything and replacing it.
[Me] and everyone in the thearter said in nearly perfect unison "lol, wtf?"
[Me] meanwhile white was plotitng to kill greenie because she had nothing better to do except homework, and complicated death plots are more fun than calculus
[Me] and your lovely narrarator forgets what the first deathplot is so shes sticking in an interlude an hoping you dont notice
[Jessica] hey
[Jessica] no killing greenie
[Jessica] the prince is supposed to rescue her
[JK11] Greenie is impossible to kill
[BirdieChopper] Rofl, I am?
[Targ] hes gotta have something to rescue her from jess
[Me] back with the forest board of directors, they closed up shop for th eday and went home. and the undersecretary said to his kick-ass gorgeous son, why are there so many princesses in the forest these days? i swear it slike the brothers grimm!"
[JK11] She has a bullet proof vest, invisible forcefield featuring 7 layers of protection, and reactive metallic armor
[BirdieChopper] Wow.
[BirdieChopper] Thanks for the info, JK.
[BirdieChopper] I dont know what I would do without you, sometimes.
[JK11] Erm, but don't jump off a cliff
[JK11] Insurance doesn't cover scratches to armor due to that
[Me] and kickass gorgeous son, whose name is KGS, was like 'oooh.... kewl'
[BirdieChopper] KGS.. Creative, rofl.
[BirdieChopper] Im seriously giggling hysterically, and my mom is glaring at me.
[BirdieChopper] Anf okay JK, Ill remember that.
[Me] anyway, back with whitey, she prepared a poison apple to give to greenie, mainly because she could not think of a more efficient death plot
[Me] so white poured the poison over the apple, and it turned lurid pink and she was like, 'hmmm that wont work'. then she put the apple in the poison, and it spontaneously combusted. finally she took a hypodermic needle, stuck it into the chat's couch and injected it into the apple. white then did a little happy dance and put the apple in a basket of peaches, so shed be able to find it quickly. she then walked of to find greenie
[Me] the seven dwarfs went off to thier jobs at the forest immigration service and on the way out, the kindlyest dwarf said, "whoa i jsut got an awful feeling of foreboding" and the others were like, "have some rum, itll help"
[Me] so greenie was home alone when an old lady came up to the door and said, "hello little one, would you like t buy some apples? fresh picked very good!"
[JK11] Is it a red apple?
[Me] and greenie said, "NOOO! I glanced up at the past couple of sections and youre trying to poison me! git you old bag!! git!"
[BirdieChopper] Oh no! Whitey was foiled! What does she do?! -sits on the edge of her seat-
[Me] whitey was finally approaching the cottage when she passed a very annoyed lady on the path. Whitey kept walking wondering why the poor old woman was muttering somethigna bout "stupid princesses, thinking the world revolves around them. there are people other than whitey peddling apples. bitch"
* BirdieChopper dies laughing.
[Me] (spoiler alert- greenei is about to have a very stupid moment)
[Bubo] Me: greenie always ahs stupid moments
[Me] so whitey came to the cottage and said, "hi greenie! want an apple?" and greenie, realizing there was no way that whitey would pick so unconvincing a disguise said, "Sure"
[Bubo] ok panda is trying to poison you
[BirdieChopper] Oh.
[BirdieChopper] Well, its a fairytale.
[Me] so she ate the apple and promptly fell over in a deathlike state. the alst thought in her mind was, "damn thats a good apple. i wonder if tis organic?"
[BirdieChopper] Snow Greenie.
[BirdieChopper] Hahahahahaha.
[BirdieChopper] At least I liked the apple.
[Me] then the kindly dwarf, who suddenly and inexplicably acquireid the name Bubo, said "ZOMG, soemthing happened to greenie!" and the other dwarves sais, "bubo dahling, shut up and drink your rum"
[Me] so several hours later the dwarves got home and found greenie lying seemingly dead on the floor. bubo then stuck out hsi tongue and said, "told ya so, losers." and the other dwarves said in unison, "my bad dude"
[BirdieChopper] Oh noes. :/
[Bubo] :P
[Bubo] wait im a dwarf?
[Me] meanwhile white was walking back to castle #social when she came upon KGS walking through the woods. KGS asked her, "Scuse me, are there any beautiful maidens in the area?" and white said, "this story is being told in #SOCIAL idiot! whadda you think? dipshit"
[Me] KGS thought white was annoying and bitchy, so he copied her IP so there could be a dramatic battle scene if the plotline called for it
[Me] meanwhile the seven dwarves decided not to bury greenie either because she was so beautiful, or they didnt want to smell her on the compost heap. whichever interpretation you like
[Me] so they tried to leave her oddly nondecomposing corpse on a glass plinth, but couldnt find a cute one on mts2. so they left her on the firewood pile under the tarp
[Targ] Oh dear, I hope the wasps don't sting her, they like living in firewood piles
[Me] then the dwarf targ (who never larfed at this, therefore he gets a crappy part) thought, "hey, lets sell tickets to see the nondecomposing dead chick!
[Targ] :p
[Bubo] ooh
[Bubo] are there refreshments?
[Me] and the dwarf bubo was like... "OMG that is the stupidest thing i ever heard you cant sell tickets without souveniers!" so the dwarves all designed gorgeous souveniers at the "Museum of nondecomposing dead chicks" featuring snow greenie and several wax dolls
[BirdieChopper] Im laughing so hard Im going to pee. xD
[Me] KGS heard of this new museuma nd was like, "that has got to be the least tasteful thing i ever heard of"
[Me] so he went to he museum and saw the most beautiful women hed ever seen
[Me] tenderly he leaned over her and kissed her
[Me] and the woman in question, being a wax doll, did nothing
[Me] so prince charming, who had just divorced cinderella, becasue she would hit the kitties whenever they ate the mice that were all over the place, went riding by. he saw the museum and was like, oh how droll
[Me] so prince charming saw dead greenie and was like, "ooh she doesnt look neurotic like old cindy!"
[Bubo] shes not dead
[Me] so he kissed her on the lips, thus getting the STD that white had given to greenie
[Bubo] lol
[Bubo] wait
[BirdieChopper] Damn STD couch.
[Bubo] you can get std by kissing somone?
[Me] but his breath was so foul, that greenie wok eup spluttering and said, "OMFG, your breath stinks!! she then passed him some convenient altoids,a nd went to take a shower. she had been dead for several weeks after all
[Me] so KGS was wandering by
[Me] again
[Me] ysee, he may have been stalking bubo, i ahvent decided yet
[Bubo] ah
[Bubo] wait a guy is stalking me?
[Bubo] ewww
[BirdieChopper] Rofl.
[Bubo] is he gay or somwthing?
[Me] and saw that greenie was alive and scrolled up quite a while in the log and was like, "ZOMG, thats one of the bitchy dead chicks at the museum! and i have whites IP! whoot!"
[Me] so KGS summoned white and ran away, becasue he was a wuss and didnt want to see the epic battle scene
[Me] which is stupid because its not that gory of an epic batle
* Bubo sees how this story is going to end
*** Jessica has joined #social
[Me] meanwhle white was saying, "what the hell? why am i here? shit its 12:30 EDT!"
[Jessica] dammit my internet died at the part where prince charming divorced cinderella lol
...
[Me] so prince charming went back to greenie and there was an epic kisisng scene. After that (i have to say after becasue they were like hyenas! I swear they were kisisng for like twenty minutes, yeesh!) they both got up on prince charming's horse
[Bubo] pretty
* BirdieChopper giggles.
[Bubo] whoopd
[BirdieChopper] I didnt know hyenas kissed...
[Bubo] O_o
[Me] becasue it s a fairy tale greenie was riding side saddle and once the horse starte dmoving she fell off in an undignified heap
[BirdieChopper] Ow.
[Me] THE END
[BirdieChopper] I LOVED IT.
[Bubo] wait i didnt die?
[Me] you want me to kill you?
[BirdieChopper] Did we live happily ever after? xD
[Me] ok
[Bubo] there was a battle scene wasnt there?
[JK11] No
[JK11] You need to watch the sequel
[Me] EPILOGUE:
[BirdieChopper] Epilogue.
[Bubo] hurry up then
*** jhd1189 has joined #social
[Me] the seven dwarves continued running thier museum of dead chicks, eventually netting 2.1 billion dollars and starting a software company that made microsoft look like a gift from god
[BirdieChopper] Wow.
[BirdieChopper] Impressive, lol.
[jhd1189] O_O
[BirdieChopper] What happened to me and the prince?
[Bubo] waitr doesnt that mean the soft ware companty was shit?
[BirdieChopper] Pretty much.
[Bubo] some dwarvees* Targ runs after greenie and saves her from prince charming
[BirdieChopper] Hey, youre one of them dwarves.
[BirdieChopper] Awh Targ, I feel so loved. xD
[Me] greenie and the prince were happily arried for several years, but the prince, being a romance sim, and a sim, got tired of greenie and left her
[BirdieChopper] Oh noes!
[Me] so she published her memoirs
[BirdieChopper] And then I married JHD.
[BirdieChopper] xD
[jhd1189] O_O
[Me] and sued disney for copyright infringement
[jhd1189] But we're cousins!
[BirdieChopper] Psht.
[Bubo] eewwwwww
[BirdieChopper] Its a fairy tale.
[BirdieChopper] I can do whatever I want.
[jhd1189] Haha we're actually not related.
[Bubo] more ewww
[jhd1189] In case Bubo believed me.
[BirdieChopper] Were related in his twisted mind.
[Bubo] more ewww!
[emoverlord] birthday related to greenie?
[Me] and so everyone was like: oooh rich snow greenie
[Me] and so she finally picked jhd and they got married and finally she lived happily ever after
[BirdieChopper] Yay.
[Me] THE END (FOR REAL THIS TIME)

Woe. And self pity.

I hate days like these.

You think your life is so terrible.
Beyond all return to sanity.
Then all of the sudden, you decide to talk to someone.
And what do you know...
Theyre life has just fallen down around them with betrayal and lies.

I honestly..
Dont think there is much point in feeling sorry for myself anymore.
It just makes me feel like a selfish ho whenever I hear someone else's story.
Can you imagine?
Being lied to like that.
My land.

Is noble, to not care so much.
Yet at the same time..
Thats completely disillusioned.

Almost.

I think I have people genuinely worried about me..
Which you think I would be happy about...
But Im not.
I mean, if this is going to kill me, I want to die with people loving me, not shrouded in worry...

Oh well...

Im listening to Almost Lover...
I dont know why.
I have no reason to...

Im happy with everything.
The people I love love me back.
And my mom envies me.
Which is crazy.
I wouldnt...
Okay, maybe I would.
But at the same time, I wouldnt.
Distance is hard...

Tyler says I should just get over it and tell him I wanna be with him and be done with it..
But I dont suppose I could.
Too shy.
Which is hilarious. :p

I can just stick to having someone who cares about me.
Even though I think I care more.
Now iant that sad?
Ah, the beauties of caring so much its sad. :/
And least I dont care for him more than myself...
Thats taking it to a scary level.
<3
Doesnt mean I dont care, though.

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Anyway. Today was interesting.

I translated a story in latinnnn. :D
I feel so smart.
Oh, then I felt even smarter, cause I finished the test in English first.
THEN, I felt even /smarter/ because i math I was kinda the only one that understood what was going on, and I wasnt even there yesterday.
Mr Long even said he was happy I was in his class.
Ah yessssssss.
Im AMAZING.
AMAZING I TELL YOU!
:DDDD

But Ive terrified Tyler [and myself, but thats different...].
He sat on my desk and just stared at me with this pained look in his eyes...
I feel bad.
He just /had/ to fall in love with me.
-sob-

Oh well.
I hope I dont die...
:]

Sighs.

May I never have to feel like this about the person I love.
I think I would rather be dead.

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images
No
Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

Just the thought of it..
Makes me want to break down and sob.
I hate caring.
Yet at the same time, I dont know what I would do without it.
My love. <3
It better not be a pointless struggle.
Cause it sure is a struggle.
Please.
Please let this all be worth something.

>.>

My 10 year old brother just threw the truth in my face, and I really dont want to believe it. I dont want to forget, I dont want to realize it actually is pointless... I just wanna stay in this perpetual happiness.

Im in love, and Im loved.
I refuse to lose that.

Gah, another one bites the fecking dust.

My day.

1 - I spent 2 hours working on something my stepmom hated.
Yeah, party invites arent easy, and she wasnt like "Eww." But she was like like "Hah, cool..."

2 - My brother threw a car at my cats head... o_O
And he totally didnt care.
And I told my mom, and all she said was "Wow, good aim."
HONESTLY. ITS MY FUCKING CAT!

3 - My dad totally blew me off for dinner.
Because his stupid friends are more important than the daughter he hasnt seen in weeks.
Go figure.

4 - Everyone is like, coming to me with their stupid "Omg, I dont have pink shoes" issues.
I mean, yeah, I care, but really? I have my own issues, thanks.

5 - Giselle completely destroyed everything.
Everyone hates me, her, and is in a pissy mood. Oh joy.

6 - I honestly dont think Cliff believes anything I say...
If someone could tell me why the fuck Id be lying, id love to know.
I mean, is it really that hard for someone to comprehend? Christ.

7 - My mommy and i had this huge fight about where we would eat
Cause she wanted fast food, i wanted to be healthy for once.. Oh my.

8 - They completely destroyed an old favorite restraunt of ours, ruining the atmosphere..
Too loud, too white, and not sinister enough.

9 - It took like, half an hour to get a glass of water.
Okay, so yeah they were having a confrontation, but really.
How hard is it to put ice and some water in a glass...?

10 - The food sucked ASS.
Pretty much.. I mean, the fries were nasty, the fish tasted like cake...
God.

11 - The waitress totally hated us, and was like "ZOMG U R INSANEEE"
We politely told her the fries were shit, and she was like ".... Whatever."

12 - My mom had to YELL about what she hated, and flipped out when I told her to shush.
I mean yeah, it sucked, but REALLY. THERE ARE OTHER PEOPLE EATING.
Who the hell wants their dining expierince ruined when its perfectly fine?!

13 - We decided to get icecream, and there was this huuuuuuuge whore in there that was like "Omfg, just cause it tastes good isnt good enough" and she had like, makeup down to her chin.
She just pissed me off, so I stormed out. Just left. Take that, bitch.

14 - My mom snapped at me not to embarass her.
Bahhhhhhhh. Crazy.

15 - And it all ended with "SINCE YOU DIDNT WANT FAST FOOD, CAUSE YOU WANNA BE /HEALTHY/, THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT."
Har har har. Makes perfect sense, huh?


Well, whatever the case... Nothing good has happened today except Ellen letting me harass her. :P
Gotta love Ellen.
I dont know, maybe Ill stay up all night and research for the pirate party, draw some pictures...
Im just not in the mood to live. :/

Blah.

Today was interesting.

I got confused as hell, found out some.. interesting things, exhausted myself, and finally lost a friend.
One that Im better off without.

You know..
i think this might be one of those people i /will/ actually love forever.
i could never imagine myself hating them.
Ever.

And, you crazy bitch, if you /dare/ shove your ass in my life again, Ill personally come and blow your fucking brains out.
All you do is fuck things up.
I hereby refuse to ever talk to your ass again.
take that.
BITCH.

I can't feel my senses
I just feel the cold
All colours seem to fade away
I can't reach my soul

I would stop running
If I knew there was a chance
It tears me apart to sacrifice it all
But I'm forced to let go

Tell me I'm frozen
But what can I do?
Can't tell the reasons
I did it for you

When lies turn into truth
I sacrifice for you
You say that I am frozen
But what can I do?

I can feel your sorrow
(I sacrifice)
You won't forgive me
(...)
But I know you'll be alright
(...)
It tears me apart that you will never know
But I have to let go

Tell me I'm frozen
But what can I do?
Can't tell the reasons
I did it for you

When lies turn into truth
I sacrifice for you
You say that I am frozen
But what can I do?

Everything will slip away
Shattered pieces will remain
When memories fade into emptiness
Only time will tell its tale
If it all has been in vain

I can't feel my senses
I just feel the cold

Frozen
But what can I do?
Frozen

Tell me I'm frozen
But what can I do?
Can't tell the reasons
I did it for you

When lies turn into truth
I sacrifice for you
You say that I am frozen

Frozen
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JizBVv-J5_0

Scooby Dooby Doo.

we got everybody singing [ w h o a ] xx says:
Anyone said that to you? Haha.
we got everybody singing [ w h o a ] xx says:
Like has anybody been all, "Alyssa, you have nice, shiny boobs."

[greenie] I think itd be cool to have a pet fuck...
[greenie] ...
[greenie] **Duck
[greenie] >.>
[greenie] Fecking keys.
[whiterider] Not decking keys?

Anyway.. Now that I have enlightened you with the most recent happenings of my conversations, heLLO.
I always seem to get hounded into posting, but you know, thats quite alright.
Without that, Im sure youd never see me, everrrr.

FIESTA

yeah. It sucked, like always.
My cousin was pissed, cause the first thing i said to her :
"Woah! courtney! Youve gotten too tall! But you still have no boobs."
Im an angel, I know...

I couldnt ride in the parade cause i got sick, and I ended up being eaten by spiders for my troubles...
Yay?
But, some dude got me an oyster shooter.
Was very.. spicy.
:D

You know when you dont know what to say, its really hard to write a fracking post.
anyways.
Gizzy and i may or may not have raped Silas yesterday, its all up to you and your vivid imagination...

OH. I had one hell of an imagination.
Sheep bits.
mmmmm.
I blame.. emo music. :/

Lets see, what has happened odd today...?
- A certain cardboard cutout.. Now thats just odd...
- I won the slut contest. :D
- My boobs are "shiny"?
- I put on 7 inch heels in an attempt to look like a hooker, and couldnt walk.
- Decided Ill never be a hooker. xD
- Went to church.. o_O
- And some freaky dude wouldnt leave me alone while I was trying to watch Scooby Doo. BASTARD.

:P

"I hope we dont fall in a trap!"
"Dont be silly Velma, that only happens to meeee--" -falls in trap-
".. Yepp."

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